Do not ever give up your efforts to connect to higher aspects of Spirit. This includes those you love who have passed. They are here. You are here. There is nowhere but here at the deepest essence all of creation shares.
You are Aware Awareness being you. All creatures great and small are Aware Awareness being them. And where you join, in the one Mind of Awareness, there is no here and there, no you and them, only being.
When you realize this, you will enjoy the moments of silence all the more, for it is here, in being pure Awareness and becoming Aware that you notice what stands out in this Awareness … a feeling, a sensation, a presence of Awareness being your loved one for the Joy of reunion.
There is no death, for all is simply Aware Awareness Being All That Is for all eternity. Does that make a visit from a loved one who has passed unreal? Are you unreal, dear one? You as an aware being arising within Awareness would declare, “No! I am quite real.”
Are your loved ones who visit you when you become silent unreal? They, as aware beings arising within Awareness would declare, “No! I am quite real.”
Know Thyself and you will know why Love never dies.
You are so very loved.