Recompense … what goes up must come down.  It is the law of balance.  Seek the center in all things and you will find peace.  In a world of duality, there is often pain associated with extremes.  This applies in either direction—what you consider good and bad.  This swinging to one side is always accompanied by what you call “payback.”  The more beyond the center you go in your experiences, the more you swing back the other way in compensation.  Seek balance, indeed, and recompense will not be so painful. You are so very loved.