That depends … Do you not find yourself saying this from time to time? And oh, does the human mind kick into full gear when these words are uttered. The mind searches through options, dips into the past, forages into the future, all the while forgetting there is another way of answering the question that engendered this “That depends.” As you come to depend first and foremost on the source that breathes you, you will no longer need to depend so much on the oh so fickle mind.
You are so very loved.
The past; the future; ah the mind is a treasure-trove of jewelled and hammered-out moments, days and years, bygone and/or yet to be. Yet of all those, you know only your own story, or your hopes and/or doubts. None of us ever knows the whole story, even of those times. You only have what you have: That becomes the foundation of your future that builds upon the past beginnings of that foundation that you started to build some time ago.
You are now beginning to realize how to build. You can and may build anything you like, but you will only do so in the present. Building only ever happens in the present. And everytime you deviate from your intended design, is the time you are, and will falter, from your intentions. Re-do’s may need to occur, frustrations may need to be sidestepped, guides and angels may need to appear one way or another, but during that all, hold on to the one you were created, who created a design for this life that is only yours, for it is then that your intended vision of design will appear, in full glory of your creation in some sense of completion… and you get to see, how that all fits as it does. You will see all which you did not know when you started, you will clearly perceive the mountains of help you received, and you will savour the joy of knowing, you are still building, all you are yet to become, now.
What a glorious wonder LIFE IS.