What if you did not label all things good or bad? What if each experience simply pointed you closer to oneness, connection, growth or farther away from it? Evolution vs. entropy. Cooperation vs. chaos. Experiences have meaning that is unique to each individual dependent upon beliefs and memories or teaching. What if, instead of labeling them good or bad, they are simply indicators of a higher or lower choice you may now make? Perspective brings peace.
You are so very loved.
I cannot tell you how much this message means to me! In fact, I refused to do anything else today morning till I see it. And here it was, like an ointment on my hurting heartache!
Yesterday, for no apparent reason I had a crying day while grieving my Mom who has been gone 15 years this year. And things had been not always good between us.
I asked for at least a dream, which I don’t have often. Nothing happened till the early morning hour. And.. it was crushing! I dreamed of some stupid argument between us when I was a young child. I don’t know what was the argument about but I know the feeling of emotional pain and rejection. Why would I dream about that so many years later instead of soothing, peaceful, reassuring motherly presence??
More tears today morning, till – this message about the perspective!
Hi L
Like many of us, our relationships with our living or deceased parental guardians is so very often a cluster of profoundly incomplete understandings on the part of all parties. Yet as a youngster of any age, and even for elders, that negative “knowledge” is only with us when we are in negative states of response toward one and/or the other.
Looking back, we might remember who it was that made the day a “bad” day or a “good” day but do we remember what made the day for all around? No – certainly not in fullness… certainly not in all aspects.
What you remember as “rejection” is a huge weight to land on human shoulders, and to carry it for years, makes it feel even heavier. You are tired of carrying that burden. So stop carrying it.
As to how to go about that… i can only remind you about what you did not know about that day. I can also suggest there might have been some meat on that bone but you have likely built upon that bone, the weighty creation you harboured in your mind’s eye. Yet your mind’s eye holds but a brief moment, of a time and past perception, that you labelled “rejection”. At some point, regarding our perceptions, we must acknowledge that there is most certainly a degree of ignorance we hold within any moment… even the moments that crash burdens upon us like meteors causing craters in our spirits, intentionally or otherwise. Occasionally, the winds of time fill in those craters. Sometimes not.
And, you’re right to look at that symbol… right enough, …for when you understand the symbol, the spirit tells you, for everything there IS an opposite. That also means if a door is closed, (in you) there is a door that is open (in you) and… you can choose to seek that open door, (Or not) but the fact that you can choose remains the point.
You are/can be in control of the winds of understanding that fill that crater in you. That doesn’t mean a crater-size burden didn’t happen, but it does mean you need not be able to remember nor understand from where that came… therefore, perhaps seek the option to fill that crater with what beauty surrounds now. That’s just one of the open doors, and there are many. Seek to open yourself to the mother as a soul, with your soul in your heart to her heart. That’s another open door. There are many.
Choose (or not) to do that which is in the highest good for you and your mother, and the crater will somehow fill perhaps even without you knowing how.
Not choosing an open door means the closed door has been chosen.
That closed door is likely labelled “Unforgiveness” but i could be wrong about that part.
Anyway – you’re dream is the first step toward a decision to which you are (or not) open.