Nowhere are you more stuck in method acting, where you identify with the role and forget you are the actor-soul, than with your family of the childhood. The friends with whom you surround yourself as you awaken from the slumber of play-acting allow you to roll around in the remembrance that there is no separation between you at the deepest level. And then, the family reunions occur, and you fall back into old patterns. Why? For there is still something there to be healed. At the soul level you know each other well, but the souls are saying, “Let’s spar a bit more. We souls know what we came here to work on, so why not work it out right here, right now?” All is in perfect order as you grow in Awareness. You are so very loved.
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I do wonder about those of us who “divorced our families” as soon as we achieved independence, because we did not want to play that game any more. I have seen so many who continue to be controlled by the guilt put upon them through family dynamics, or who are unable to stop trying to “win” arguments that could just be left behind.
Suzanne, this is directly applicable to me. I have been in role of carer all my life. My parents are Italian and culturally I have been expected to care for the family. I grew up and became a nurse and now (for the last 2 years) I am full time carer for my mother who has dementia and my father who could no longer care for my mother by himself. She is in the progressed stages and she wanders around the house all day wanting to go….. Then calling my name and asking for help..but I am not sure what she needs and she can’t tell me. It triggers me so much because my role is to care for her, but I am finding it hard to meet her. She is vacant a lot, then sometimes she turns to me and says thankyou. My husband, my gift, always brings me back to my true self. When I am with friends they bring me back to myself also, then when back with mum and dad the cycle continues, what is the lesson!
I’ve been asking my grandma Pat (short for Patricia) to show me Swans as a sign. This is very validating for me. The title “Patterns” jumps out to me, showing her name ‘Pat’terns, and the Swans, Very Nice :)
I knew when Sanaya told me to chose the swans that it was a message for someone!
But what if you’ve done your sparring and want to stop and they keep wanting to spar with you? I have tried to ” ring the bell” on matches with two bullying sisters but they don’t hear it, they want to go for the knock out.
This is an ongoing opportunity to learn to sense your relationships soul to soul.