You feel as if you are spiraling down, when all you want is to feel good again.  This is the natural impulse built into your very being to have an aversion to pain and an attraction to pleasure.  Grief is perceived as pain.  In contrast to such pain, no grief is perceived as pleasure.  Feel all of it, please.  You came here to this realm of opposites to experience the totality of duality.  The grief will pass and then arise in waves, perhaps when you least expect it.  Why?  For you have loved so fully, and the love is a constant.  The love is what never dies.  Love is of the soul.  Grief is of the human story.  The two go hand in hand whilst in human form.  It is not a punishment.  It adds richness to experience, but you cannot see this while thinking you are only human.  You are both a human and the everlasting soul, which is what your loved one across the veil is now. Feel the grief, but know that beneath it lies love.  And yes, as you discover you are a soul who is always whole, therein also is found peace. 

You are so very loved.

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