You are told to look for the silver lining. What causes this effect? The sun shines from behind a dark cloud, showing you with its luminous rays that even in the face of obstacles the Light is still there. It catches your attention and you are drawn to it. All light is like this. When you pass from this physical existence, a great light will draw you onward. It is the contrast between dark and light that has always shown you the way. You are the Light, and so, like seeks like.
Do not curse the darkness. This is sage advice. Darkness serves a great purpose, but you need not remain there. Look for that silver lining and you shall find it simply because the Light in you which will never go out seeks its Source. With that Source you are eternally connected. Light is your natural state.
You are so very loved.
Wow. I just left the cruise and this absolutely fits with something I want Suzanne to know –
Three years ago, I lost my husband, Troy, to colon cancer. We had not been married long, we were in our 40’s, we were ‘supposed to’ have many years ahead of us… the truth is, I would have never been ready to say goodbye to him.
Before Troy crossed over, he told me that it was my mission to ‘keep going’, that the thing he loved most about me was that I set my mind to something, accomplish it, and look for the next thing. When Troy was admitted to hospice, to my surprise, he told them he didn’t want to stay at home. I knew that wasn’t true, so I asked him why he would say that. He said he was afraid that dying in our bed would break me. I said, “losing you is going to break me, regardless of where you are. We might as well have you at home so I can take care of you.”
Since the day his soul left his body, I have been searching for him. He has sent me many signs that he is still here, but I am a biologist, and a skeptic… I like evidence. I have never been able to initiate the connection with him.
A few months after he died, I was laying on my left side, in bed, enjoying the peace of a Sunday morning and watching America’s Test Kitchen. My dachshund Fitz still in his crate, Julia was making pizza on the tv… and I was PUSHED over onto my back, and there was Troy, laying on top of me (full, healthy body weight on me), giving me a hug. When he pulled back, crying, I asked him how he could be there, how could I feel his weight on top of me… he looked back at me and said that he is always with me and that I can get through this because we will be together again. I kissed him, I told him I could do anything if I know he is on the other side of it. We hugged again and then my phone rang and he was gone. (Darn telemarketers!) The entire time, I was aware of Julia making pizza on ATK… and it was as real as any other Sunday morning in bed with him watching cooking shows.
I went to my grief group the next week and shared my story. I sat there telling the other widows that it wasn’t my imagination or a dream or wishful thinking. I knew I was not crazy, Troy visited me. That night, the leader of my grief group gave me your name and I have been on a mission since. I have watched so many of your YouTube videos, tuned into your monthly connection, the Alaskan cruise was my first traveling without Troy (I love traveling)… I even brought my niece along to an event you had at a Unity church in Kansas… I can NOT connect with him. So, for the last 3 years, I have been on a journey. I have learned a lot about myself, about healing old wounds, asking for help when I need it, letting love in (there’s a pretty cool story here, too), and so much more. I was at the darkest places my soul can be, but I kept hearing Troy tell me to keep going, to keep living… and I did, for him. But still, I could never connect with him when I initiated things, it was mostly a general knowing that he is rooting for me still.
About a year and a half ago, an old friend of ours, that Troy introduced me to, contacted me. David knew that Troy lost his battle with cancer, but because of his own battles at that time, he was unable to be there for us and he wanted to apologize. I absolutely agreed to meet with him and I was anxious to hear how he had been. Turns out, David was finding his way out of some very dark places too. We had a lot of things in common and our friendship rekindled easily and we eventually grew to love each other. (WHAT?!?! That is the LAST thing I ever expected to feel again!) David was very cautious at first, unsure of how Troy would feel about his new role on my life. I tried to reassure him that Troy wanted me to live and told me that I had to keep going. I have KNOWN that Troy wants me to be happy, and just like in life, I think he was playing David’s matchmaker again, but this time, it was with me!
When you announced the Caribbean cruise, I was all in. I asked David if he wanted to go too. I let him know that I thought he would enjoy the workshops, but I didn’t expect him to attend if it wasn’t something he was interested in. He went to every session. The first session, when we attempted to connected with a loved one, I went in with the intention to connect to Troy. I did not see him, but I did FEEL him and an overwhelming sense of love and joy. I talked with him a bit, as I often do – I love you, I miss you, can you believe I got David to come to this… I received this overwhelming sense of love and support, like he was saying, “I know exactly what is going on, and love that you are happy.” When I asked him what sign he would send me, I saw something, but I wasn’t sure about it. When I came out of that meditation, tears were streaming down my face and David wiped them away. I grabbed my phone and made a note of the sign… just in case.
Monday night, David got down on one knee under the stars on the Solstice deck and asked me to marry him. We danced to Harvest Moon after I said yes. The next morning, while waiting in the reflection theater for our excursion, I saw some footage of elephants with the sunrise behind them. The sunrise made them pink. I took my phone out, reminded David of that meditation on the first day, and showed him the note I took about the sign Troy said he would send – “elephants, maybe pink?” He didn’t see the footage, but he still thought it was neat. I was thrilled! After 3 years on this journey of self discovery and healing, I FINALLY initiated contact and was successful!!!!
Fast forward to Thursday, first session of the day. You were taking questions from the audience. A woman in the back asked how long it should take to get signs and said she isn’t getting any of the signs she is asking for. You told her not to ask for specific signs, to ask spirit what sign they will give to you. Then you said, “…and if you do ask for a sign, don’t ask for something crazy like pink elephants!”
I think David and I almost fell out of our chairs! I believe that Troy showed me footage of pink elephants in the theater so that I would loop David in on the sign so that when you said it, that was Troy telling David, ‘Angel is right, I am here, and this is how things are supposed to be.’ Message received.
Wow, Suzanne, thank you so much! I know that I have an amazing soul across the veil that is determined to make sure I am ok, but you have given me the tools to satisfy the scientist in me and KNOW he is there. Honestly, while many people this week have called you a medium, I see it differently. Living the Awakened Way is about connecting with our true selves, which is so profound and is such a healing journey… connecting with loved ones, is icing on the cake. Thank you for the spiritual guidance!
We will continue to tune in and David is anxiously awaiting the announcement of the next cruise destination!
Much love.