There is a tremendous difference in vibration between wanting a thing so badly that it hurts and knowing that a thing may well happen as you co-create it with your higher self.  The human side of you may wish for impossible things, such as turning back the clock.  The spirit side of you knows the difference between the story of your human life and the ongoing, co-creative, limitless nature of the soul.  The latter creates in ways which serve the greater good and raise not only the vibration of the soul, but the Consciousness of the whole.  When you “want a thing so badly” there is often constriction in the heart and solar plexus.  When you co-create from the soul, there is peace and allowing.  Come to know the difference and discover that peace.