There are consequences for your choices. Yes, it is easy to put blame somewhere else, but if you follow the breadcrumbs you can see cause and result in effect. Need we give you examples? It is the human way to use free will when seeking pleasure and avoiding pain, yet do you not learn from less-than-optimal choices? Do not beat yourself up. This only brings more pain. See yourself with compassion and next time you may just choose differently.
You are so very loved.