You cannot build a house on a crumbling foundation. The same is true for connecting regularly with Spirit. There must be a foundation of stillness. Too many clouds passing through the sky clutter up your view. How much do you wish to know the higher realms and those who inhabit them? Enough to build a solid foundation? We can give you many analogies to help you differentiate between true being and being human, true nature and human nature, but until you dedicate yourself to coming to know the difference through personal experience, these will be only words. Words are temporary and limiting. You are eternal and limitless. Sit with intention to listen to the silence with no need to hear at all. You may be astounded by what you find.
You are so very loved.