Here is what you are looking for. It is right before your eyes and right behind your eyes. You speak in terms of here and there, and you find separation. Speak only in terms of here, and you will begin to understand better your true nature—the nature of Consciousness. This state or altered states, it matters not. All you ever have is experiences arising where? Not there, but here … in consciousness, in your awareness. Wrap your head around this … this Awareness that never goes anywhere, and you will understand why here is the key and the doorway to everything – most especially peace.
You are so very loved.