Peace be upon you. Is that not what you want? Running about looking for it, most especially outside of yourself in the world which appears far from peaceful will not help you find it. Perhaps you do find a sanctuary such as a church where peaceful, holy energy has built up over years. Where you are sitting now can be such a refuge when you realize the sanctuary lies always within you. Any physical place can be a sacred, holy place no matter how tumultuous when you go within to the state that never changes. This is pure peace. There is nowhere to go, nothing to do save shift the focus from one reality to your eternal reality.
You are so very loved.