When you dig in your heels, you can easily get off balance. The body is built for balance. When you exert your will and override the natural balancing tendency, you can remain strong for a while, but some opposing force is now working against you. There is no other way, for that is the way of physical force. You could, of course, flow with the one true Force that powers all, but paradoxically, this requires letting go. When the wind no longer pushes a boat off balance, it returns quite naturally upright.
You are so very loved.
Yes, it is like a human, walking on water. We need to trust, and God knows we generally do not trust from moment to moment. God works relentlessly hard at teaching us, in those very same moments. And then suddenly, one day, for just a single one of those moments, we discover that which was always there. Eureka! And…, the next moment we forget. 🤔. Forgot what? Go figure eh!
It’s ok. You’ll have at least started noticing. You’ll notice more now. You can however accelerate your connection to Consciousness via Awareness. Yet, weather or not you choose to do so, is up to you however, you will grow simply because you have opened THAT door and are beginning to actually envision YOUR slightly expanded relationship to the worlds around you. You have started a beautiful journey that God has offered to you from even before you were born. You are just beginning to remember THAT in those moments.
God HAS Blessed you and in one other time, IN another moment you will BE grateful. And that too, you will forget until…. ….
And yet, in that too, YOU will grow.
Even forgetfulness has growth, of Awareness, to offer. Accept that too. It is part and parcel of Awareness.
Some of us are powerful exerters of our wills…. and some of those felt they needed to become that while others just are that. What difference do you suppose that makes in you?. Take a look at your level of input toward exertings and you will begin to see what differences can do. Do you still take time to notice “the flow”… that you are in it or outside of it? Do you feel that it matters or even acknowledge that “the flow” exists? Where on what “scale” do you envision your self to be? Then measure up.
When in balance your will works, with your guides. That will all work for you… even when problems strike.