Words are an impediment to knowing.  When you feel a presence in your meditations or when sitting or walking in the silence, tune in to what you know.  You are in the habit of putting knowingness into words, and as often happens in the process of translating languages, important nuances are lost.  In this case, you are translating the language of the heart to a language that ascribes limited meanings to symbols.  Knowing is limitless.  Take a walk, why don’t you, and see what you know without any words at all.